Daniel Cartier (00:19)
I might as well just be honest with you guys. This is a weird episode for me. I filmed an entire episode
and it was fine. you know, was what it was. I talked about a bunch of stuff. I took a bunch of calls and I may, ⁓
post it later on,
I don't know, something happened during the middle of the week, right before I was about to post it, and then, I don't know, everything just started feeling really fucking stupid to me, and so I didn't post it. And you know, I'm not gonna beat around the bush. Basically what happened is Charlie Kirk got shot by somebody, and Charlie Kirk, in case you've been living under a rock and you don't know who he is, he's this right wing.
I'll just call it like I see it, racist, sexist, homophobic, transphobic provocateur who's made millions of dollars spreading conspiracy theories and what I view as hate speech on college campuses, mobilizing tons of young people to basically be the new moral majority, I guess. And...
You know, I know for somebody like him, somebody like me, a gay liberal atheist, I'm basically the antichrist. you know, so was I a big fan of Charlie Kirk? No. As a matter of fact, I wasn't really even that familiar with him until all of this happened. I had heard his name. I had seen a stories over the years, but you know, he was just one of many people in that whole Trump, Topian, MAGA verse,
saying all the stuff that they say.
But then, know, all this happened and suddenly, his name is everywhere and his comments about, you know, saying that Martin Luther King Jr. was a horrible person and the Civil Rights Act sucked and, gay people suck and transgender people suck and, women should be subservient to their husbands ⁓
that all came to the surface. I think what, what, what bothered me and why I had to just take a step back
And honestly, just not do anything for a while was...
just seeing how many people in my orbit, because you know, I live here in Tennessee, you know, like I know, like I shouldn't be surprised, even this podcast, you know, I'm a gay liberal atheist living in the Bible belt. And how many times have I said on this podcast, that I love everybody, you know, if you're gay, straight, conservative, liberal,
black, white, like, I don't care. I mean, just by my very nature, I'm a loving person and I love everybody. But what was happening this week was the same type of anger that I felt after the election. And I know I shared about this too, after the I just saw all these people people that I loved cheering that a fascist fucking clown.
like Donald Trump got reelected, ⁓ it just brought up so much rage in me. ⁓ couldn't talk to people for a while, and this whole thing with Charlie Kirk brought that up again, like seeing how many people in my orbit thought he was just this great guy. listen, I don't condone anybody getting shot. mean, it's not about that. I can hate.
what somebody represented but still not want them to get shot. mean, the two thoughts aren't mutually exclusive. I'm very capable of being horrified that somebody got shot and also thinking that what they stood for and the values they stood for and all the fucking bullshit that they did in life sucked. So yeah, I think that what he did in his life I think it didn't do any good. I think that he was spreading,
hatred and fucking fear and I mean I guarantee you that probably a bunch of faggots like me got beat up because of bullshit he said on college campuses I'm sure some transgender people got beat up I'm sure black people got beat up I'm sure some girls ended up being in really abusive relationships and not feeling like they could get out of it because according to him girls should be subservient to their men you know this is all bullshit he said
College campuses are letting him come on and like mobilize the new fucking generation of conservatives. You know, if that's the messenger they want, then I'm sorry, your whole fucking movement sucks. Fucking sucks a big pile of fucking shit. I'm sorry, it just does. And you know, I didn't mean to get all crass, but you it's hard for me not to get crass when I talk about all this bullshit because I'm 56 years old, I've lived through so much fucking bullshit in my life. You know?
lived through the fucking AIDS crisis, seeing my beautiful friends fucking die while conservatives fucking laughed about it, you know, and said gay stood for like GOT AIDS yet and you know that it was God's punishment, you know, and then saw friends, you know, get murdered for being gay, I saw friends, you know, get disowned by their fucking stupid religious parents for being gay, you know.
and then kill themselves? You know, because they couldn't fucking deal with the fact that their family didn't want to have anything to do with them? You know, it gets to the point where it's just like one side has the good ideas and one side has the toxic fucking shitty ideas, but they up in an American flag and a fucking cross, and then suddenly, it's great. You know? It's America!
and has nothing to do with freedom and it has nothing to do with anything except toxic masculinity. So I don't know, when that kid got shot, and he is a kid, you know, at 56 years old, 31 seems like a kid to me at this point. And so, you know, I will say this one thing, it's too bad.
I mean, it is too bad, obviously. It's too bad. It's too bad when anybody gets murdered. But, you know, maybe if he had stuck around for a little while, maybe he would have evolved. That's my hope for everybody, you know, that we evolve and realize that there's always going to be gay people and transgender people and black people and white people and females and males and non-binary people. There's always going to be
every fucking type of person under the fucking sun. Short people, tall people, blue-eyed people, brown-eyed people, know, people who are, naturally good at this or naturally good at that. know, diversity does make the fucking world go round. And yet somehow it's a fucking bad thing now in this new fucking era. This fucking MAGA universe. And so, I don't know. I kinda had this like really sinking feeling when...
He got shot. just had this sinking feeling.
I was like, here we go, they're gonna start calling for war. And sure enough, that's what's happening. You know, I've seen so many fucking dumb ass TikTok videos where, these guys who look all serious, they're like, well, this is it now. the liberals, they've been pushing us and pushing us. this is not just can we all get along anymore.
This is war. It's like just fucking give me a break. You know if we're at war now because some racist sexist homophobic transphobic xenophobic Conspiracy theory spreading
provocateur who made millions of dollars basically selling hate speech to college kids if we're at war now because he got shot when news flash
On an average day in the world over 1200 people get murdered. 1200 human beings. So you know, we're not going to war over any of them, but this fucking racist fucking guy who said Martin Luther King was an awful human being. That's exactly what he said. Those were his words. Like I'm not making this up. This isn't fake news. Some 31 year old
dissing Martin Luther King? It's like, fuck you! Honestly. I just can't believe it. It's like I went to sleep in a normal world and I woke up in fucking crazy town. Where like, up is down and left is right and all this fucking bullshit. mean, I don't know. So, when I realized what was happening and I saw the writing on the wall and then, you know, I was gonna go post my fucking
episode that I had filmed and I was like, you know, who gives a shit about this? Like does this even fucking matter? You know? Any of it. You know? And when I say that as an atheist, I really mean it. Because you know, I don't believe that there's a god or any of that stuff. I mean, no offense if you do. Like I've said many times, if you believe in God, I think that's awesome. I'm not trying away from you. If anything, I'm kind of jealous.
I wish my brain worked that way. It just doesn't.
And so when I say I'm an atheist, I'm not trying to be a douchebag towards your beliefs. I'm just saying I'm an atheist because that's the way my brain works. I'm very literal. And you know, like I've said many times, hey, if I'm wrong, awesome. You mean I get to go on and there's like bonus time later on and I get to fly around in the sky and see all the pets that I had that died and get to be reunited with them and my parents and my mom who died of Like yeah, sign me up for that.
Sounds fucking great, but you know, it just doesn't make any sense to me, because my brain is very literal and then I start thinking, okay, well, if we all go to heaven, and then dogs go to heaven and cats, you know, like where's the cutoff? Like what species? It's like, okay, mosquitoes, that's a bit much. Gnats, definitely not, Larger bugs like grasshoppers, okay, maybe. You're a little bit more complex. I mean, it just, doesn't make any sense to me. So.
You know, I just choose to believe that this is all there is. This is all just biology. We all evolved into this species that can, you know, create computers and iPhones and headphones and like, argue with each other on fucking Facebook and, go to war with each other because we don't like what this person said or that person said or whatever, you know? then we die. And it's lights out.
I mean, that's what I think. And then, our bodies break down and nourish other things and other life forms rise up out of our demise. And that's beautiful to think about. And I don't mind that, you know. And if that's all there is, which I do think that's all there is, you know, great. So let's enjoy our time right now. which is why for me, being an atheist,
It sucks and then it's amazing. It sucks because yeah, you know, it's a fucking bummer. It's a bummer. My belief is a fucking bummer. I won't lie. It does. It sucks. It sucks not having some sky daddy or, you know, thinking about the fact that it's lights out when I die. Like that kind of makes me feel claustrophobic. I don't like the thought of not existing, but you know, there you have it. I don't think I'll exist like again, my body will break down and become.
whatever, but you know, all my thoughts, they'll just stop and then at some point people will forget that I existed and it will be like I was never here. And you know, part of me is okay with that. And then another part of me, I'm human and I think humans get freaked out by not existing anymore. makes us kind of panic. And so we create all this stuff and then we fight over it. And then we, you know,
start imposing morals because of it and, trying to dictate how other people should live because of it and it's all because we have this fear of, you know, death and whatever, So, I don't know, I mean, all this shit came up this week and I kind of had a fucking moment and I wasn't gonna post anything, I really wasn't. I was just gonna be like, you know what, fuck it, you know, like I'm just gonna...
Take a week off. But it was bothering me. was bothering me because I also don't want to be one of those people that's just kind of like, you know, I guess Daniel gave up on something else. he can't stick with anything. ⁓ And that bothered me, too. I don't want to be that person. So, I decided to at least come on here and explain why I hadn't posted anything, and
You know, now all these fucking guys, in fucking Maga land are saying we're going to go to war. We're going to go to war with the liberals. I mean, meanwhile, the guy who shot Charlie Kirk He wasn't some transgender person, or a gay guy like me or, you know, a lesbian or a
a black person or whatever. mean, it was a white straight Christian dude from a gun toting, very Trump-tastic household
But anyways, whatever. He wasn't some tree-hugging, tofu-eating person like they were trying to paint the shooter out to be. Before they knew it, what bothered me. I'm just gonna list off all the things that bothered me this week and all the reasons why I just could not fucking get past my thoughts.
just kept tripping over my thoughts. our fucking president sucks. He fucking sucks. What a fucking horrible leader. when this powder keg of a situation happens where some right wing provocateur has millions of followers.
gets violently killed, which again, that's horrible. I don't condone any of that. But when that happens, instead of trying to unify the country, what does he do? He goes and pours fucking kerosene over the whole thing. He starts talking about the liberals and the left and the deranged left and all his fucking crazy town USA fucking bullshit. You know, just.
talking about how evil the liberals are and whatever, it's like, dude, what are you trying to do? What is your point? Are you trying to start a civil war? I mean, I actually think that is what he wants. I think like he would love that. So he's just egging it on just like he egged us on during COVID. He could have set a precedent during COVID. He could have worn a mask and he could have told everybody.
Hey, if you want to be patriotic and if you want to save your elderly neighbor from dying from this virus or your neighbor who has health problems or anybody with a compromised immune system, be patriotic, get the vaccine, put your mask on, social distance, stay at home. He could have done that, but that's not what he did, is it? No, he saw an opportunity to politicize it and do an us versus them thing.
And you know, because he knows that a divided America is his wheelhouse. He knows that like America, if everybody was getting along, he would have no power. His only power is in having Americans hate each other. That's that's his power. You know, that's Donald Trump's big. I don't know if there was a talent show that would be his talent, making people hate each other. So bravo.
Mr. fucking president, you're doing it again. now, if you go on TikTok, if you go on Instagram, I Social or any of those platforms, but even the regular platforms, it's just all these fucking pissed off looking white dudes saying, we're at war. I've seen a bunch of them already.
I mean, I swear to God, these guys, this is what they've always wanted. They've wanted an excuse to kill liberals. what they And you know, I saw a bunch of this bullshit and,
Granted, this was after a couple days of seeing people I love post these really touching memorials for Charlie Kirk. people that I got sober with, people I've gone to high school with, family members, like posting all this stuff, like as if he was just this amazing guy, Like.
this one guy I know, he's somebody I got sober with and he's a nice guy, but he's a Trumper he was like, he died. what did he say? It was some fucking thing. Like he died, for exercising his freedom of speech or whatever. And it's like, yeah, but dude, what was he speaking about?
hate speech yeah he died because he was exercising his freedom of speech and like the freedom of speech he was exercising was very violent and very toxic and very divisive and you know was kind of like fanning the flames of all the hatred that's already here in America but yet now everybody's turning him into a saint and so I saw all these people and I think the thing that bothered me is you know these are people
who claim to love me. to recovery meetings with them. I see them in my community. They ask how Cory's doing. They give me hugs and all this stuff, but I know how they voted.
And I don't know, it bothers me that it doesn't bother them that this guy, they are turning into a saint, viewed somebody like me as this pariah, as this abomination, you know, he was like posting stuff from Leviticus, which basically, calls for the death of gay people, and brought up how
gays were groomers and all this other stuff. so that was this guy's opinion of me. And then here is all these people who claim to, love me because I'm part of their community, their recovery community, or doing errands around town and seeing them here or there or whatever. I mean, I know a lot of people who voted for just because, hello, I live in Tennessee and, I'm surrounded by them. And you know,
Here they are posting his photos if he's this saint now. And I'm like, do you realize what this guy thought about people like me? And it doesn't bother you? What kind of friend are you that you would canonize this guy who thinks that your friend Daniel is an abomination? That fucking bothers me. Is that weird that it bothers me? Mind you, I'm very sensitive about stuff like this because I am the victim of a very violent gay bashing, you know.
like I wouldn't wish PTSD on anybody, but I've had PTSD from my gay bashing for the past 36 years. Actually longer than Charlie Kirk was alive, My gay bashing happened before he was even born. And then he comes into the picture and spends his life.
saying that people like me are an abomination. Well, what about the six guys who fucking gay-bashed me? What does he think about them? Did he think like they were doing a good civic duty when they dragged me by my ankles across pavement and kicked me and called me a faggot and smashed what I think was a rock over my head and strangled the guy I was on a date with until I thought he had passed out and I thought they had killed him and I thought I was next and I saw my life flash before my eyes and I don't know, like if you've never stared into the face of death.
I wouldn't wish it. It sucks. It's something that comes back and haunts me all the time. I've actually had episodes where my brain you know, like if I'm in a situation that feels dangerous, I shut down. That's PTSD, But you know, so here's this guy saying that I'm an abomination and
comparing me to, people who are grooming children and all this other toxic bullshit, which, you know, my problem with it is that he goes onto college campuses and says all this bullshit, and there's fucking frat guys, you know, there's frat guys listening to him, and what's the message he's giving them? yeah, faggots suck, let's go beat up some fucking faggots. That's how this all works. Language begats fucking actions.
And so, all this stuff was going around my brain and quite honestly part of me was like, why am I even doing this fucking podcast anymore? I'm like this sitting duck in the middle of a little podunk town in Tennessee and I'm you know, surrounded by, like pickup trucks with fucking Confederate flags all over my fucking town, Trump signs, like we live right in the middle of
ground zero for people who think that all of this fucking bullshit is great.
You know, we live right in the middle of it. I think maybe Alabama might be more conservative, but where we are, it's pretty fucking conservative. And here I am doing some fucking podcast called There Is No God and We're All Gonna Die. What am I, fucking nuts? Like, what is my fucking problem? Am I trying to get killed? Because, know, basically, I don't know. So I was thinking about all this stuff and I was really, I won't lie, I was really fucking finding myself very pissed off at all these people that I love.
and like wanting to confront them just say something like, you know, I see that you're really torn up about this guy, getting killed. Well, do you like his message? do you agree with everything he said?
According to him, I'm like not a worthy person of being alive, like, if you wanna like, you know, his legacy, shoot your gay best friend Daniel, one less liberal faggot you have to deal with. I mean, I kinda wanted to like just confront people. I was feeling that feeling of almost like wanting to get in a bar fight or something. And that's not like me, I don't like feeling that way. But that's what I was feeling, I was feeling all this anger.
And I don't know, mean, finally I was like, I may not even post this because this is a little too fucking raw even for me. I know I'm very outspoken and, you know, it's one of the things that I'm good at is voicing. I think I'm good at it. Maybe I'm not, maybe I'm delusional, but I think I'm good at voicing the things that are in my head and sounding kind of articulate when you get rid of all the swear words that I tend to say.
But even for me, this seems a little raw, But then maybe that's not a bad thing. I mean, this is how I'm feeling right now. I'm just feeling like, I don't know. So before I decided to film this thing tonight, one of my friends, who's a very lovely person, sent me another video and he was like, well, here we go. And it was some other fucking guy on TikTok.
Some guy with a fucking beard, can't even remember what the fuck his name another right wing provocateur who has a fucking TikTok channel like Bravo, yay for you. You know, and all these fucking people, they have thousands or millions of which is really fucking depressing too.
But, yeah, this guy. He was like, all right, the liberals, you know, they push us and they push us. Well, it's not about getting along anymore. Like this is war. And he was going on about how this is war. And I'm just like, you know what? So I don't know. I just, kind of flipped out and I posted this thing. I was like, okay, well, if we're at war now, like this is me on my fucking Facebook page. I don't know what the people who follow me thought when they saw this,
Daniel Cartier (22:33)
So basically I was like, if we're at war now because some racist, sexist, xenophobic, homophobic, transphobic bigot got shot and now we're at war and the MAGA fucking toxic masculinity army needs to go and shoot all the liberals now because of that. you know what? Here I am, fucking shoot me. Shoot me first because you know what, I'm 56 years old.
And I'm just fucking too old for this If that's what this is gonna be, I don't even wanna be here for it. I don't. Cause it's fucking stupid. If we're gonna just start shooting each other because some guy got shot. You know, here's the deal. 1200 people a day get shot and we're not shooting each other because of it. 1200 people all over the world, granted, not just in America, but all over the world.
1200 people on average get shot. actually think it's more. It's like 1254 or some number like that. It's like an actual number. On average. But this one person who's a hate speech provocateur, he's the reason why America, after over 200 years of being in existence, he's the reason why we're gonna go and start killing each other now. spare me. That's fucking ridiculous.
But yeah, I mean, if that's what it's gonna be and they're just like jerking off thinking about killing the liberals, you know what? Here I am. I'm a gay liberal off all the fucking boxes for you guys. Here I am. Start with me. Because honestly, it just sounds so fucking stupid that I don't wanna be here for it. I'm too fucking old for this bullshit. I really am. And I can't believe that this is the fucking bullshit we have to deal with right now.
All this fucking toxic fucking cocksucking bullshit because of Donald fucking Trump. So fucking sick of him. So fucking sick of him.
I don't know. mean, I was feeling suicidal this week, I won't lie. I really was. If it wasn't for my dogs and my partner and my friends and like all the things I know, don't, I mean, I shouldn't say that. I wasn't feeling suicidal, but I was feeling like I didn't wanna be here. I mean, honestly, I fell into a really deep depression and I didn't fucking wanna do anything, I really didn't.
Which is really sad because you wanna know what?
My last episode, not the one I filmed that I didn't post, but the one from last week, I was all excited because, you know, my little podunk town was gonna have a gay pride parade, not a gay pride parade, but a gay pride festival, and I was gonna have my little art booth there, and I was gonna sell you know, my pride art, and I did. I actually made a bunch of art, that was...
I inspired by Pride transgender Pride and gay Pride and I set up my booth and I sold a ton of it and it was a great day and no protesters showed up which was amazing. I mean I was was thought for sure we were gonna get tons of protesters because we've always had them. I mean this was the third year and we've always had protesters and I thought surely now that Trump's back in office and all these you know neo-nazi
know, wing nuts feel emboldened, surely they're gonna show up with their bull horns and their flags and everything to intimidate the queers. Surely they're gonna do that, but they didn't. I was actually joked around about it. like, ⁓ you know, is there something wrong with us? Like, where are they? Like, I was kinda like expecting them to be there you know, to give us a bunch of shit. And so like, I was like, well, what's wrong with us? you know,
Why aren't we worth protesting over? but apparently we weren't so they weren't there and it was just a beautiful day and people had a great time. And so that was really wonderful. And then to go from that to like all this toxic negativity And honestly, even people on the left.
It bothered me as well too. I I get that people were like angry, but you I don't know like.
A lot of my friends on the left, they were saying some stuff that was like very inflammatory as well. I understand that people are upset.
And, I get it.
I don't know, I'm sorry, I know this is a very like weird episode, it's not like my normal peppy happy self, but you it's not natural to be happy and peppy all the time, it's just not. Everybody has their breaking point, I think I had my breaking point this week, I think it all just, I don't know, all of it, it brought up a lot of stuff for me, seeing...
all these people talking about how they wanted to kill the liberals and retaliation and go to war and whatever like it was bringing up PTSD stuff for me from when I was ⁓ gay bashed and stuff like that and
I don't know, it was bringing up a lot of stuff. I found myself just not even wanting to do find myself just doom scrolling on my phone. like...
just feeling numb, I just felt numb, you know, like that I didn't really see any point to anything. And I don't like feeling that way, you know? I used to try and feel that way back when I was drinking and you know, as some of you know, I've been sober now for almost seven years. that feeling of feeling dead inside, I, that's how I used to want to feel all the time. I used to actually,
actively try to feel that way. you was like a gallon of vodka a day drinker. I just wanted to be numb. I never really understood people who wanted to speed up and do meth or Coke or anything like that. No offense if that's what you were into or even if that's what you're still into now. Like I'm not, you know, trying to rain on your parade, but my ⁓
My drug of choice was anything that made me, catatonic, like just like a puddle on the floor, like just numb, like I just, my brain never stops, it's as you can probably tell from me talking right now, it's, it's kind of exhausting myself 24 hours a day, And so I found myself actually even wanting to drink I mean, I wasn't going to, I wouldn't do that to my partner
or my dogs or my friends in recovery, like I, mentor a lot of guys in early recovery and I wouldn't do that to them. But,
Daniel Cartier (28:48)
Anyways, Corey just came home while I was filming this and, I dunno, I'm probably just gonna wind it up because, there's a lot of other things that I could say, a lot of examples of stuff that I saw this week that bothered me. ⁓
I don't know people that I really love like I don't know I actually even lost some friends this week because of it. People that I've known one girl that I've known since high school I've known her for 40 years and she was posting all this really racist horrible stuff because she was mad she was mad that this guy got shot so she was posting stuff about George Floyd and about you know.
Antifa and like all this other stuff and I just I realized you know what I? Just don't want this in my life. I don't I don't you know it's like it's not like I don't love her as a person You know, but I just I just can't just like I've reached my limit I've reached my limit with a bunch of it. You know I Let her know what I thought of all the stuff She was posting and then I just called it a day, and I don't like being that person. I don't like being like that
But at the same time, life is so short and every moment that I'm here could be my last because as an atheist, that's what I believe. I don't believe that there's some bonus time. so whatever I'm doing now, this is it. My heaven and right now. I don't think that there's a heaven or hell later on. I think we create our heaven and hell right now. When I look at somebody like Donald Trump, they're living in hell. I don't know how somebody like that could be happy.
you somebody like Elon fucking Musk or you know, like these fucking
Neo-Nazi people or whatever, it's like, are they happy? Like, is that a happy existence? It seems fucking miserable to And it makes everybody else miserable. it's like, I kinda wanna live a life where it's like...
spend my day around people that I love and care about, you know, and I don't know. And so I was not feeling that this week, the energy that I was feeling and the energy I'm continuing to feel. won't lie. I'm really worried about how this is going to play out. I really am. Because I think that, America
we were evolving. We were evolving. We were evolving, you know, there was the 1950s and then the 1960s happened and people started getting more open minded. And then the 1970s, people got really open minded. And then the 1980s, you know, this like, there was like this like pushback from the right. And then all through the 1980s, 1990s,
there's just been this growing tribalism. There's there's two Americas, you know, two Americas have really formed. there's not a United States of America anymore, and, know, I'm really feeling it. I'm really feeling it. And it scares me that people who I love, people you know, I see every day like if they had to choose sides, I don't think they'd choose the side I'm on. And that scares me.
You know, that breaks my heart, So I just kind of feel like...
I don't know.
I feel like I just don't know where I belong right now.
Yeah, this was kind of more of like a therapy session than a normal episode. And I apologize for that. I don't know what you guys are supposed to do with this information. I'll be fine. I'm going to walk my dogs. I'm going to have a nice night with Corey. I'm going to do some art. I'm going to make some music. I'm going to try to stay grateful and, I'm going to try to be the love I want to see in the world.
be the light, the change, and the hope that I want to see in the world, because I do believe it all begins with us. don't think it, you know, I think if we want to have joy, we need to bring the joy. If we want to have, you know, hope, we need to bring the hope. And sometimes we're not able to, and so then we need to ask for help doing that. And that's okay, too. But yeah, it's, it is what it is.
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⁓ Again, this is not my normal type of episode. Normally I have all these segments that I do and like I said, I had already Filmed an episode That with all the app, you know little segments and whatever and I don't know when this thing happened I don't know. It was just kind of like I Took the wind out of my sails because I kind of saw Saw it for what it was. I was like, you know, this is gonna be a thing. This is gonna be a big thing
And maybe I'm wrong. hope I'm wrong. I hope that, you know, not to make, light of his death or anything. mean, again, I think what happened is horrible. think anytime somebody's murdered, it's horrible. So I don't condone anything like that. Why would I? that would make me a fucking monster. But I also don't condone turning somebody who happened to die, turning a racist, sexist,
homophobic, transphobic, hate speech provocateur, I don't condone turning them into a saint after they're dead. I think that's wrong too, and I think it's insulting to people who died who weren't all those horrible things. Like, why not celebrate them? somebody who actually did some good and celebrate them instead. There's plenty of people to choose because like I said,
You know, on average around the world, 1200 people a day die. And so I don't know why we have to just like choose this one person to canonize. And now they're saying they want to erect a statue of him in Washington DC and like all this other stuff. And I don't know, it's just Trump's like pandering to his base because of it. And you know, like I said,
Trump is fanning the flames, you know, talking about the deranged liberals and the radical left and all this other stuff. You know, all the radical people I've seen, they're not on the left, aside from like two incidents that I can think of, you know, all the mass shootings, it's like far right extremists, zealots.
I don't know. Anyways, mean, I'm just rambling now and I meant to wind it down. I love you guys. I'm fine. I know that I kind of just like went off the rails here, but you know, if I can't be honest on this podcast, if I can't share how I'm feeling on a podcast, then I don't see what the fucking point of this is.
If we can't be honest with each other about how we're feeling, then I don't see any point to this and I wouldn't want to do it. I wouldn't want to come on here and pretend to be happy and okay when I'm not. Like I just, I just, I'm, I'm incapable of doing that. It's not in my wheelhouse. I wear my emotions on my fucking sleeve and I don't apologize for it. You know, so this, this week sucked. I won't lie. It's, it's been a very difficult week for me. You know, my partner was worried about me. He saw.
Like he clearly saw that I was not in a good space. You know, just seeing all this toxic bullshit get dredged up and like people wanting to kill other people and blah, blah, blah. And.
Yeah, it was very difficult, but life goes on. And, again, it seems like I can't finish this podcast. keep talking. Okay. You guys, I, I, I actually will shut up now. I love you guys. Even if you hate me, if you're some MAGA person who came here wanting to hate the, you know, godless queer,
I'm still glad you're here, and I love you. I love everybody. I mean, don't hate anybody, I'm just, it's not how I'm designed. It's not how I was raised. But, um, it doesn't change the fact that I'm very liberal and very gay and very, is atheisty a word? Just, I guess it would just be in very atheist. That's just who I am, you know? But, uh,
I don't know. I'm gonna wind it down. Alright. I love you guys and I will see you next week. Hopefully with a better attitude. Okay. Bye.